I’ve lost track of the days I’ve attempted to stop smoking. The bonus level in the daunting task of smoking cessation has been the complete and utter lack of side-effects from the caffeine withdraws. The downside has been the side-effects from nicotine withdrawal is horrible at best.
I had a few days off to spend with the kids home from school due to spring break, and each day I smoked 5 cigarettes each. What I need to do is break the habits of what I’m doing when I’m smoking instead of focusing on stopping the cigarettes altogether. I use smoking as a way to get out of my head and take a step away from the task I’m working on at the time. If the twins become too much of a hassle, I can step outside and have a cigarette. If I’m stuck at a level in a game or on a particularly difficult plot in a story, I can take five and not worry about it for the length of the cigarette. I see it more as a pause or a mini-break instead of me going outside and sucking down a carcinogen. Add in the fact the cigarettes help dull the ache of the migraine and It’s a double-edged sword.
My son Chris now is on my case to stop smoking as well. I applaud his effort, and I will stop smoking for my kids and family, but having him leave me notes and giving me a dirty look when I walk back inside is more like rubbing salt into an open wound and not helping.
As I said earlier, I need to break the habits which make me want to smoke. If I can focus on those hurdles first, the smoking will stop on their own. I also don’t want to gain another 1000 pounds by substituting one habit for another as many people trying to stop smoking tend to do.
What I think I’ll turn a habit into is saving or collecting money. Instead of smoking, I’ll use the extra money to pay bills and get a cushion underneath the family so WHEN the stupid 300M dies, we’ll be able to buy that luxury mini-van we’ve had our eye on for the past 12 minutes.