I’ve realized I’m not the sociopath I once thought I was. Instead, I’m a like a “ninja mailman,” waiting in the shadows to deliver a message without anyone seeing me.
Ninja Mailman. Christ, I need more coffee.
The point I’m trying to make is this: I’m not all high and mighty on the Self Promotion bandwagon. The brilliant comedian Adam Ferrara once said “You know how big my ego is? I keep a diary and a lie to myself in it.” I’m not that way. I suck at self promotion and feel even worse about my self image.
I checked out the Amazon stats for Tempt the Fates and realized in two months I’ve sold more YA books than my two self-published music albums from the early 2000’s COMBINED. That’s right: SIX. (I only sold three records. Total. Despite them being awesome. Now I give them away for free.)
It’s sad, humbling and keeps me grounded in the fact that here I sit broken-hearted…wait, wrong stall. I’m writing to write. I’m here punching out ideas and plotlines and story arcs and all this other nonsense because I want to. I don’t give a rat’s trap how many I sell. I’m not here to sell books or ideas or anything. If I did, Great! But in the end, I want to tell a story and have people enjoy what I do.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. I’m here to write and tell a story. I want to enjoy what I do and have fun doing what I enjoy. Pimping myself isn’t part of “Fun” for me since I’m not a sociopath. I understand now many authors – especially self-published authors have to pimp themselves. Let’s just say my pimp hand isn’t “strong.” I don’t think of myself that way.
However, I do have the online presence. I’ve helped Widescreenwarrior.com with their gaming section for the past year, I just contributed (and hope to keep going forward) with the “Shall We Play A Game” podcast and as for writing books, novellas and whatever else people want to call “stories,” well, I’m going to keep doing what I enjoy.
If I make money, great! If not, I lose nothing but time. I’m doing what I love to do because I’m doing it my way. When this becomes too much like work, I’ll probably stop doing it. I said I’m not a sociopath, I can also tell you I’m not much of a masochist either. Well, depends on the woman. In some instances I’ll be a masochist. I do have a slight biting fetish, but that’s for a different article.
Anyways, here’s the link to the podcast if you’d like to hear the episode: (Not sure if if it’s in iTunes yet…)
And here’s the link on Widescreenwarrior for my review of Zelda: Skyward Sword:
As always, I’m on twitter, Facebook and the everywhere else people go to pimp themselves when they don’t want to. (links are on the top of the blog.)